And that is exactly where you may want to stay for a while: NOT making sense of it, but experiencing it for as long as you can. Stay with the fear, joy, excitement or wonder you just experienced and live with it for a while. Attempts at explaining such things are ultimately destructive: what has been given to you is a glimpse of something that ‘could’ be, something outside of your everyday experience, something ‘more’… and such things are precious.
Let’s look at something more commonplace: imagine you had a dream one night and you woke up and that one image stuck with you. It didn’t make sense until you entered a situation where it suddenly become a valuable thing to remember. Think of a peak experience in similar ways, but this time it’s not so much your subconscious that hints at something, but the universe showing itself in a way that you can ultimately learn to understand. It just takes time. Speaking from my own experience, I had several such powerful moments and am learning to integrate whatever they have given me into what goes under the description of ‘real life’. It is not always easy, I admit, but I’m finding that my experiences have started to influence how I see the world around me in sometimes subtle, sometimes dramatically different ways. One of the most surprising things I have come to understand is that everything is temporary. For many of you, that may sound unsettling, I know. But think about it: if everything good is temporary, so is anything bad. If you can think of bad things happening in the future, then you can also imagine good things. My personal outlook towards the future has changed through this: I can now see a positive side to most developments. There is a sense of balance that I never had before. At the same time, I also perceive myself as part of something bigger, and it is part of me, too. Following one of my own experiences, I no longer feel like an unimportant cogwheel in a huge mechanism as I used to. I still am part in the whole image, but no less important than anything else. Lately, I feel like fading into a wall with increasing regularity during meditations, but so far I have resisted the urge to fade away in meditation. Maybe it’s time to let go and see what comes next if I allow that to happen?
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